Sadness

Recently, I've been feeling that I was one of the happier of the world bunch due to various reasons. It's amazing how one small ordeal in a pleasant morning can turn a world upside down. When I feel sad, it originates from the core. This sadness is created by two parties: me and p. It's a dose of my disappointment at his accusations and his failure to commit to the deal as well as his disappointment at me for my failure to give in and accommodate without a fight. I think the problem originates from differing values and priority. Sometimes I question my firmness in being who I am and playing to my current values and priorities. Is it worth it to stand my ground or should I have really be further understanding but risk losing a part of me. Is losing part of me good or bad? There is often a gray area to decision making that I do not particularly enjoy discovering. I despise those who come to challenge me...at least for a short moment, I did.